Sarcastic infighting. Negative putdowns. Stinging stares. Volatile explosions of anger. Doors slamming. Desperate feelings of loneliness. Awkward silence.

Those descriptions portray the marriages in many homes and families. And also, in many parsonages.

We are not immune, are we? It is possible that you have gotten to the place where you look for excuses not to be home. Or to be there as little as possible.

It’s easy in the ministry to justify our absence, isn’t it? Even in our own minds.

For more years than I care to remember, I was so insecure and fearful it wasn’t uncommon for me to drill Cynthia with questions—petty, probing questions that were little more than veiled accusations.

It is amazing she endured it. Finally, we had one of those famous showdown confrontations every married couple has had.

No need to repeat it, but she made it painfully clear that I was smothering her, I was imagining things she never even thought of doing . . . and it had to stop.

Her words hurt, but she did the right thing. Thankfully, I took her seriously.

I went to work on this ugly side of my life. I confessed my jealousy to Cynthia. I assured her I would never again treat her with such a lack of trust. I asked God for grace to help, for relief from the destructive habit I had formed, and for the ability to love and give myself to this woman without all the choking conditions.

I distinctly recall how much an understanding of grace helped me. It was as if grace was finally awake in my life, and I could appropriate its power for the first time.

Committed to Grace

It seemed to free me; first in small ways, and finally in major areas. I can honestly say today that I do not entertain a single jealous thought.

Grace literally wiped that slate clean.

I’ve said for years now that my favorite place on earth is just inside the door of my home. I absolutely love being home. It is there I find maximum . . .

• Security
• Acceptance
• Fulfillment
• Accountability
• Responsibility
• Harmony
• Honesty
• Love

Why? Because we are committed to the same common denominator: Grace. I like Paul’s summary of how grace works: But as people sinned more and more, God’s wonderful grace became more abundant.” (Romans 5:20). How great is that!

1. Abundant grace releases and affirms. It doesn’t smother.
2. Abundant grace values the dignity of individuals. It doesn’t destroy.
3. Abundant grace supports and encourages. It isn’t jealous or suspicious.

What does it take for us as pastors to be just as thoughtful and encouraging and creative with our wives as with those who sit in front of us on Sundays?

I have the answer: it takes grace.

—Chuck